What are my expectations?

What are my expectations exactly? Well I have plenty of expectations, expectations of myself, my trip, my relationship, and many other things. These past months I realized I wanted to rely heavily on my expectations. What I thought my senior year would look like, having a job, playing my last year of softball, graduation, my trip. Struggling to deal with fluctuating emotions, insensitivity, irritability, and clouded judgement at times. All these things made it 10x harder to deal with my daily life. I was resting still on the thoughts of what I thought should be happening, instead of trusting that God has a plan set out for me.

Expectation means a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future (curtesy of the dictionary). An expectation can also become a burden to ourselves. If we do not line up our future with God we cannot see what he has in store for us. I recently read 2 Corinthians 4:18 and it fits perfectly with this!

“So we don’t look at the trolls we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.”

That is so good! He tells us if we look for things that are fleshly desires that will surely parish we will not see the blessings in store for us. 

How does this apply to basic things though? Nothing is too basic for God. God wants us to trust his judgement to guide our thoughts and expectations. I know there is plenty of things that I expect, the problem isn’t what it is, its how you go about it. Just as I can have good intentions for something doesn’t mean I will have faith to walk it out. Without faith we are hoping for something to happen, where as faith we believe we can accomplish it.

My trip has definitely affected everything about my life and me personal in some of the best ways, even though it doesn’t always look that way. I am so grateful to have come in contact with so many Racers and Alumni Racers that pour out love and wisdom. One of the things that really stuck out to me that one of these Racers said was “get rid of your expectations! Walk into this journey ready to be blown away by God!” At first I was confused how I was supposed to do that, but the more I prayed about I realized that God wants to be involved with you and be the priority in your life!! Taking more steps to devoting yourself to him.

I felt that the Lord really put the word expectation on my heart. Well, more so revealed what my heart was dealing with. I was seeking to meet these expectations without asking God how to go about them. What expectations I have of myself can be hard to meet if I don’t have faith that I can change, I can be better, and I can be stronger. 

My last thought as I write this is that we take time in our crazy lives to examine what expectations we have of ourselves, others, our lives and especially the things you want most! 

Thank you so much for reading my blog! I can’t wait to share more of what God is doing in my life on this journey.

always keep a smile:)

-Kayci